Bear’s Creative Writing
“I Am a Monster”
This piece was based on what I believed to be the internal (and likely subconscious) logic of three friends… people I care about who have wrestled with intense self-hatred. One of them said it was “100% accurate.”
It’s ugly. It’s honest. And it’s not a cry for help. It’s a portrait of how self-loathing thinks. If you recognize parts of yourself in here… I see you. You’re not alone. And you’re not beyond healing, no matter what your brain says.
Content warning: intrusive thoughts, self-hatred, and emotional intensity.
“Elegy for a Lost Soul”
This was written instantly after the last time I ever spoke with my adoptive son. At the time, he was still alive, but had chosen the path of destruction over redemption. He passed away five months later.
This poem is a farewell, an explosion of anger and grief, and a expression of love that never stopped.
“I See You”
This was written based on a F(r)iction prompt for my adoptive son, Riku, during a time when he was starting to believe he could be loved.
It made him cry, and he asked me, “How do you see this?”
I told him, “Because you showed me.”
This is a letter to him, but it’s also for anyone who’s ever felt like too much and not enough at the same time. You are seen. You are loved.